Sunday, June 27, 2010

1) Yes, I've got my Australia Driving licence le. =D 2 months ago. which is a good thing, since I can drive. Intending to convert it into Singapore when I get back next week.

2) I'm now doing my last week of this semester, exams... 3 more subjects to go. Michelle, Jia You!

3) I only left 1 winter school, 1 semester 2, 6 more subjects to go before graduation..

The other day my housemate, Angela, asked me, what have I learn from being an international student for 4 yrs.

Yes, I've learn alot of things... being a young girl at the age of 16, I begin to venture out to overseas, alone, without any relatives or friends.. People tend to call me a brave girl, but I doubt so. In fact, I think that I quite stupid. Overseas life, may sound relaxing, something new, fun, exciting... But its never the case when you really experience it. For this 4 yrs, I'm always homesick. and being homesick, affects ur health, studies, emotions....

The outside world, in overseas context, is never that perfect as what others thing. I suffer alot to begin with, in this outside world, without family support, without friends support.... I have to take the burden all down to my shoulders... The very first 2 months when I came over to Adelaide, I was already chased out by my homestay uncle, in the middle of the night, for no reasons. he is just drunk, or whatever. I don't know.... What did I learn? I learn to protect myself.... be protective and not get bullied anymore

For the 2nd year of my Adelaide experience, barely the age of 18, I really have to fight with most china girls. What did I learn? I learn to be cunning, and not to trust people easily... I hated to be that way. When I look at my friends in Singapore, they are all so simple, and happy..... But girls, the outside world is always complicated..... Especially when you have to live with china people, its a no choice factor, just have to learn to protect urself, and at the same time, attack others... and every single day is psychology war...

For my 3rd year of Adelaide, living becomes rather stable, since I've finally found a singaporean girl and moved in with her. But studies for the first half year is never easy. because, I'm still stuck in the China environment college..... But I'm glad that I smoothly completed my Degree Transfer studies.. at the second half of the year, I went into University of Adelaide, year 2, happily, and guess what? I met a Malaysian girl, Hui Ying. honestly, she is the first luck i ever found in Adelaide... (can u believe it? after 2.5 yrs?) We quickly became best friend. I think, she's kind of like fated to be my friend.. because, sometimes when I think back, we really are friends very very quickly.. so fast...... just an hr talk in the lecture, and we are kind of like 'similar'. =D Our interests, family background... and both of us hated Adelaide, got homesick..... at least, something good happen in my life...

For my 4th year in Adelaide, first half year, was a struggle again. But then, this time, its because of studies.. I've decided that I should graduate half a year earlier, and hence, studied the whole year round (with no holidays!! - well, to be accurate, less than 1 month of holiday for the whole year) so I begin at January, and intend to end at last November... Its like, I've studied in Summer School (also by overloading), in Semester 1, Winter School, and Semester 2. But my hard work did pay off. Amazingly, my results for this year is above satisfactory... and I'm really happy...

*Through all these experiences, I've realised that the most unpleasant unhappiness is actually being homesick already, and at the same time, is bullied by people who are living with u, in this foreign land. I call this living stress. The less unhappiness (which is still unhappy) is to be cunning, and play psychology war with friends at school (but still, at least its kind of like acceptable?). The most happiest thing is study stress. Although I studied a year round, feel tired but I still happy. =D