Tuesday, January 31, 2006
♥ e most unhappy chinese new year i've ever been through..
Yeah! Finally, my parents had get the toilet and my room's socket fixed!! Before Chinese New Year!! And now, although it's late, I'm still able to sit comfortably in my room, writing this blog. What a heavenly kind of life..
Yea.. just got back from the PS cinema. I've just finished watching "I not stupid too". What a touching show. However, the ones that watch the show with me are the ones that I'm very disappointed in. Well, of course, not including my beloved parents and Eileen. They are all my cousins.
Today, although it's Chinese New Year, but I sadly go through this day. Yup, in the day, everything was going fine. Except when it came to the night, where things started to go wrong. No. In exact, things started to get out of control. Yes, I'm not as clever as all my cousins. One from Raffles Junior College, one from Raffles Instituition, one from St Nicholas, and one from Singapore Poly. All came from either the top schools or the good schools. Not like me, from a bad school. A school that leads you to almost a dead end. Of course, unless you are unlucky enough to get clever suddenly and get into a good school after O-level.
Yes, in this incident, you can say that I'm petty or whatever. But I just can't accept this kind of things happening to me. Especially when they are my cousins.
The story goes like this...
We were celebrating Chinese New Year in my maternal side grand-uncle's house. However, my paternal side's cousin followed along. Well, everything was going quite fine and nice. Everyone in my car was having fun discussing MP3s and MP4s.
Until the time where we reached my grand-uncle's house. And things started to turn bad. Really bad. It's when all my cousins, both paternal and maternal side, gang up against me! Even the only girl cousin, that I trust most, joined in! It was like there's a quiz where I can't solve, but they all know the technique to solve it. Some got the technique themselves, while others, like me, who can't get the answers, got it from the others. It was everyone except me who can't manage to know the technique. Later, all of them started to laugh at my stupidness. My ignorance. All! None of them is helping me! None is supporting me. They have no blood relationship with each other. But they have blood relationship with me!! And worst! They know me for 15 years, almost 16! And yet, they only know each other for like 2 to 3 years! They all ganged up together to laugh at me!! Well, I may be petty, but I just can't stand this kind of nonsense. They laughed and laughed.. even when I cried. They still continued to laugh. None of them, bother to say sorry. They just enjoyed laughing. None of them thought of my feelings. What can I do? They are all my cousins. Not my friends.
No.. up till now.. I've received not a single sorry.. it's been a few hours..
I can be really nasty. Until I can't stand it anymore. And I've shouted so loud at them that all the laughings stop. All the nonsense stop. And everyone's mood dropped. Well, although I've spoiled the atmosphere, but the atmosphere that the somehow created has done really bad, yet sad things to me. Therefore, I had no choice but to stop it.
Well, there's a limit to every single thing. Once you go overboard, that's it. All the jokes are gone, and the atmosphere has turned bad. I'm not a robot afterall. You can't ask me to get upset myself, and let you enjoy. I can't do that. That's not the way to do it. If you want to do it this way, sorry. I'm not the right person to look for.
I'm sure no one on earth wants to be a laughing stock and a get bullied by others without saying a single word..
And anyway, the adults started saying that I was in the wrong. But what wrong do I have got? I don't find any wrong in me. They say that I was too petty, can't take things easily. But yet, none of the adults understand my situation, my feelings. None of them can understand. You can laugh at me for an hour. Yeah, I don't mind. But too much of it. Then I guess I'm not in the wrong.
You can't ask me to stand still at let people laugh at you, let them laugh at you all they want to right? Harlo? I am a human! I have feelings.
So, don't do this to me again. Will all of you let me go?
Yea.. just got back from the PS cinema. I've just finished watching "I not stupid too". What a touching show. However, the ones that watch the show with me are the ones that I'm very disappointed in. Well, of course, not including my beloved parents and Eileen. They are all my cousins.
Today, although it's Chinese New Year, but I sadly go through this day. Yup, in the day, everything was going fine. Except when it came to the night, where things started to go wrong. No. In exact, things started to get out of control. Yes, I'm not as clever as all my cousins. One from Raffles Junior College, one from Raffles Instituition, one from St Nicholas, and one from Singapore Poly. All came from either the top schools or the good schools. Not like me, from a bad school. A school that leads you to almost a dead end. Of course, unless you are unlucky enough to get clever suddenly and get into a good school after O-level.
Yes, in this incident, you can say that I'm petty or whatever. But I just can't accept this kind of things happening to me. Especially when they are my cousins.
The story goes like this...
We were celebrating Chinese New Year in my maternal side grand-uncle's house. However, my paternal side's cousin followed along. Well, everything was going quite fine and nice. Everyone in my car was having fun discussing MP3s and MP4s.
Until the time where we reached my grand-uncle's house. And things started to turn bad. Really bad. It's when all my cousins, both paternal and maternal side, gang up against me! Even the only girl cousin, that I trust most, joined in! It was like there's a quiz where I can't solve, but they all know the technique to solve it. Some got the technique themselves, while others, like me, who can't get the answers, got it from the others. It was everyone except me who can't manage to know the technique. Later, all of them started to laugh at my stupidness. My ignorance. All! None of them is helping me! None is supporting me. They have no blood relationship with each other. But they have blood relationship with me!! And worst! They know me for 15 years, almost 16! And yet, they only know each other for like 2 to 3 years! They all ganged up together to laugh at me!! Well, I may be petty, but I just can't stand this kind of nonsense. They laughed and laughed.. even when I cried. They still continued to laugh. None of them, bother to say sorry. They just enjoyed laughing. None of them thought of my feelings. What can I do? They are all my cousins. Not my friends.
No.. up till now.. I've received not a single sorry.. it's been a few hours..
I can be really nasty. Until I can't stand it anymore. And I've shouted so loud at them that all the laughings stop. All the nonsense stop. And everyone's mood dropped. Well, although I've spoiled the atmosphere, but the atmosphere that the somehow created has done really bad, yet sad things to me. Therefore, I had no choice but to stop it.
Well, there's a limit to every single thing. Once you go overboard, that's it. All the jokes are gone, and the atmosphere has turned bad. I'm not a robot afterall. You can't ask me to get upset myself, and let you enjoy. I can't do that. That's not the way to do it. If you want to do it this way, sorry. I'm not the right person to look for.
I'm sure no one on earth wants to be a laughing stock and a get bullied by others without saying a single word..
And anyway, the adults started saying that I was in the wrong. But what wrong do I have got? I don't find any wrong in me. They say that I was too petty, can't take things easily. But yet, none of the adults understand my situation, my feelings. None of them can understand. You can laugh at me for an hour. Yeah, I don't mind. But too much of it. Then I guess I'm not in the wrong.
You can't ask me to stand still at let people laugh at you, let them laugh at you all they want to right? Harlo? I am a human! I have feelings.
So, don't do this to me again. Will all of you let me go?
3:25 AM
