Tuesday, January 31, 2006
♥ e most unhappy chinese new year i've ever been through..
Yeah! Finally, my parents had get the toilet and my room's socket fixed!! Before Chinese New Year!! And now, although it's late, I'm still able to sit comfortably in my room, writing this blog. What a heavenly kind of life..
Yea.. just got back from the PS cinema. I've just finished watching "I not stupid too". What a touching show. However, the ones that watch the show with me are the ones that I'm very disappointed in. Well, of course, not including my beloved parents and Eileen. They are all my cousins.
Today, although it's Chinese New Year, but I sadly go through this day. Yup, in the day, everything was going fine. Except when it came to the night, where things started to go wrong. No. In exact, things started to get out of control. Yes, I'm not as clever as all my cousins. One from Raffles Junior College, one from Raffles Instituition, one from St Nicholas, and one from Singapore Poly. All came from either the top schools or the good schools. Not like me, from a bad school. A school that leads you to almost a dead end. Of course, unless you are unlucky enough to get clever suddenly and get into a good school after O-level.
Yes, in this incident, you can say that I'm petty or whatever. But I just can't accept this kind of things happening to me. Especially when they are my cousins.
The story goes like this...
We were celebrating Chinese New Year in my maternal side grand-uncle's house. However, my paternal side's cousin followed along. Well, everything was going quite fine and nice. Everyone in my car was having fun discussing MP3s and MP4s.
Until the time where we reached my grand-uncle's house. And things started to turn bad. Really bad. It's when all my cousins, both paternal and maternal side, gang up against me! Even the only girl cousin, that I trust most, joined in! It was like there's a quiz where I can't solve, but they all know the technique to solve it. Some got the technique themselves, while others, like me, who can't get the answers, got it from the others. It was everyone except me who can't manage to know the technique. Later, all of them started to laugh at my stupidness. My ignorance. All! None of them is helping me! None is supporting me. They have no blood relationship with each other. But they have blood relationship with me!! And worst! They know me for 15 years, almost 16! And yet, they only know each other for like 2 to 3 years! They all ganged up together to laugh at me!! Well, I may be petty, but I just can't stand this kind of nonsense. They laughed and laughed.. even when I cried. They still continued to laugh. None of them, bother to say sorry. They just enjoyed laughing. None of them thought of my feelings. What can I do? They are all my cousins. Not my friends.
No.. up till now.. I've received not a single sorry.. it's been a few hours..
I can be really nasty. Until I can't stand it anymore. And I've shouted so loud at them that all the laughings stop. All the nonsense stop. And everyone's mood dropped. Well, although I've spoiled the atmosphere, but the atmosphere that the somehow created has done really bad, yet sad things to me. Therefore, I had no choice but to stop it.
Well, there's a limit to every single thing. Once you go overboard, that's it. All the jokes are gone, and the atmosphere has turned bad. I'm not a robot afterall. You can't ask me to get upset myself, and let you enjoy. I can't do that. That's not the way to do it. If you want to do it this way, sorry. I'm not the right person to look for.
I'm sure no one on earth wants to be a laughing stock and a get bullied by others without saying a single word..
And anyway, the adults started saying that I was in the wrong. But what wrong do I have got? I don't find any wrong in me. They say that I was too petty, can't take things easily. But yet, none of the adults understand my situation, my feelings. None of them can understand. You can laugh at me for an hour. Yeah, I don't mind. But too much of it. Then I guess I'm not in the wrong.
You can't ask me to stand still at let people laugh at you, let them laugh at you all they want to right? Harlo? I am a human! I have feelings.
So, don't do this to me again. Will all of you let me go?
Yea.. just got back from the PS cinema. I've just finished watching "I not stupid too". What a touching show. However, the ones that watch the show with me are the ones that I'm very disappointed in. Well, of course, not including my beloved parents and Eileen. They are all my cousins.
Today, although it's Chinese New Year, but I sadly go through this day. Yup, in the day, everything was going fine. Except when it came to the night, where things started to go wrong. No. In exact, things started to get out of control. Yes, I'm not as clever as all my cousins. One from Raffles Junior College, one from Raffles Instituition, one from St Nicholas, and one from Singapore Poly. All came from either the top schools or the good schools. Not like me, from a bad school. A school that leads you to almost a dead end. Of course, unless you are unlucky enough to get clever suddenly and get into a good school after O-level.
Yes, in this incident, you can say that I'm petty or whatever. But I just can't accept this kind of things happening to me. Especially when they are my cousins.
The story goes like this...
We were celebrating Chinese New Year in my maternal side grand-uncle's house. However, my paternal side's cousin followed along. Well, everything was going quite fine and nice. Everyone in my car was having fun discussing MP3s and MP4s.
Until the time where we reached my grand-uncle's house. And things started to turn bad. Really bad. It's when all my cousins, both paternal and maternal side, gang up against me! Even the only girl cousin, that I trust most, joined in! It was like there's a quiz where I can't solve, but they all know the technique to solve it. Some got the technique themselves, while others, like me, who can't get the answers, got it from the others. It was everyone except me who can't manage to know the technique. Later, all of them started to laugh at my stupidness. My ignorance. All! None of them is helping me! None is supporting me. They have no blood relationship with each other. But they have blood relationship with me!! And worst! They know me for 15 years, almost 16! And yet, they only know each other for like 2 to 3 years! They all ganged up together to laugh at me!! Well, I may be petty, but I just can't stand this kind of nonsense. They laughed and laughed.. even when I cried. They still continued to laugh. None of them, bother to say sorry. They just enjoyed laughing. None of them thought of my feelings. What can I do? They are all my cousins. Not my friends.
No.. up till now.. I've received not a single sorry.. it's been a few hours..
I can be really nasty. Until I can't stand it anymore. And I've shouted so loud at them that all the laughings stop. All the nonsense stop. And everyone's mood dropped. Well, although I've spoiled the atmosphere, but the atmosphere that the somehow created has done really bad, yet sad things to me. Therefore, I had no choice but to stop it.
Well, there's a limit to every single thing. Once you go overboard, that's it. All the jokes are gone, and the atmosphere has turned bad. I'm not a robot afterall. You can't ask me to get upset myself, and let you enjoy. I can't do that. That's not the way to do it. If you want to do it this way, sorry. I'm not the right person to look for.
I'm sure no one on earth wants to be a laughing stock and a get bullied by others without saying a single word..
And anyway, the adults started saying that I was in the wrong. But what wrong do I have got? I don't find any wrong in me. They say that I was too petty, can't take things easily. But yet, none of the adults understand my situation, my feelings. None of them can understand. You can laugh at me for an hour. Yeah, I don't mind. But too much of it. Then I guess I'm not in the wrong.
You can't ask me to stand still at let people laugh at you, let them laugh at you all they want to right? Harlo? I am a human! I have feelings.
So, don't do this to me again. Will all of you let me go?
3:25 AM
Friday, January 27, 2006
♥ lots of things to talk abt..
Oh. Hi readers. Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Oh gosh! I miss internet so much. I don't know how long I've been not online. It's not the problem with my computer. It's the problem with the plug. It somehow got my house blackout whenever I used it. Well.. hmm.. not a problem any more. Although it's not fixed yet, I'm not sitting comfortably in my dad's office, on my dad's manager chair and using my dad's computer to go online.
I have no idea why. But everything in my house seem to be a gone case. For example, the plug that I've mentioned above, and my toilet's light. They doesn't seem to work at all. Now, even the kitchen's light is not working. Oh.. I wished that things will be fixed right after Chinese New Year. Hopefully dad and mum will have the kind of time to get an electrician to my house.
Anyway, it's Chinese New Year Eve tomorrow. Here, I'll wish all my readers a Happy and Prosperious New Year!! Well, my room is all nicely decorated. =P. And here, I'll say thanks to Kelly, Joanne and Pamela. It is nice of you all to send me New Year cards. Sadly to say, I've not recived Michelle's card. But then again, it is thoughtful of you sending me a card. So, thank you.
Oh, a new year and new me. This year, is my graduating year. It's a Secondary 4 year. It's an 'O'-level year. More competitive, more stressful and more work to do..
However stressful it is in this year, I'm sure I'll find lots of joy, happiness and fun this year. Cause it is a dog's year!! My most favourite animal, my most favourite pet! Oh.. saying this makes me missing my dogs, although I've just seen them this morning. Anyway, I feel really senior whenever the teacher says "4 Diligence" (my class). It seems kind of awkward. And well, looking at the new Sec ones makes me feel really old. This kind of feeling is just too overwhelming..
And of course, a good news to annouced! I've just got a new MP4 and a new phone!! Finally my wishes came through! They are all Samsung. I don't know why, I just kind of like Samsung's product. They just seems good and longlasting. Hehex..
You know what? My dear readers, I've spend my New Year in Hong Kong Disneyland. From 31st December 2005 to 1st January 2006!! Yesh! I've finally went to Disneyland! My dreams come through! HIGH 5!! Imagine taking photos with Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse and doing countdown with all the Disney characters. How exciting it would be?! How fun?!
Oh yes. Almost forgot to mention. I've passed my A-maths entry test!! I'm now officially an A-maths student!! Cool right? It took me a real hard time to become an A-maths student. In my school, to become an A-maths student meant that you need to pass your A-maths end-of-year examination in Sec 3 and your A-maths entry test in Sec 4! And guess what! I've passed both of them!! Here, I would like to say a millions of thanks to my cousin. He has helped me alot. The most helpful help I ever ever had. Although I'm not sure whether he'll read this journal, maybe he never would, but I'll still say a millions thanks. Thank you.
Lastly, is not a really good news. However, I still would like to mention it in my journal. Cause it somehow has affected my life, my list of friends and well, it has hit me hard. Fanghan, my very best friend, has told me that Lauren, the girl that I hated most, is very concerned about me. Imagining the girl that you hated most is concerning very much about you! Wow! So dramatic. But, still, that's what Fanghan told me. I really don't know whether I should change my attitude towards her or just let things remain the same. Hard decision..
I have no idea why. But everything in my house seem to be a gone case. For example, the plug that I've mentioned above, and my toilet's light. They doesn't seem to work at all. Now, even the kitchen's light is not working. Oh.. I wished that things will be fixed right after Chinese New Year. Hopefully dad and mum will have the kind of time to get an electrician to my house.
Anyway, it's Chinese New Year Eve tomorrow. Here, I'll wish all my readers a Happy and Prosperious New Year!! Well, my room is all nicely decorated. =P. And here, I'll say thanks to Kelly, Joanne and Pamela. It is nice of you all to send me New Year cards. Sadly to say, I've not recived Michelle's card. But then again, it is thoughtful of you sending me a card. So, thank you.
Oh, a new year and new me. This year, is my graduating year. It's a Secondary 4 year. It's an 'O'-level year. More competitive, more stressful and more work to do..
However stressful it is in this year, I'm sure I'll find lots of joy, happiness and fun this year. Cause it is a dog's year!! My most favourite animal, my most favourite pet! Oh.. saying this makes me missing my dogs, although I've just seen them this morning. Anyway, I feel really senior whenever the teacher says "4 Diligence" (my class). It seems kind of awkward. And well, looking at the new Sec ones makes me feel really old. This kind of feeling is just too overwhelming..
And of course, a good news to annouced! I've just got a new MP4 and a new phone!! Finally my wishes came through! They are all Samsung. I don't know why, I just kind of like Samsung's product. They just seems good and longlasting. Hehex..
You know what? My dear readers, I've spend my New Year in Hong Kong Disneyland. From 31st December 2005 to 1st January 2006!! Yesh! I've finally went to Disneyland! My dreams come through! HIGH 5!! Imagine taking photos with Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse and doing countdown with all the Disney characters. How exciting it would be?! How fun?!
Oh yes. Almost forgot to mention. I've passed my A-maths entry test!! I'm now officially an A-maths student!! Cool right? It took me a real hard time to become an A-maths student. In my school, to become an A-maths student meant that you need to pass your A-maths end-of-year examination in Sec 3 and your A-maths entry test in Sec 4! And guess what! I've passed both of them!! Here, I would like to say a millions of thanks to my cousin. He has helped me alot. The most helpful help I ever ever had. Although I'm not sure whether he'll read this journal, maybe he never would, but I'll still say a millions thanks. Thank you.
Lastly, is not a really good news. However, I still would like to mention it in my journal. Cause it somehow has affected my life, my list of friends and well, it has hit me hard. Fanghan, my very best friend, has told me that Lauren, the girl that I hated most, is very concerned about me. Imagining the girl that you hated most is concerning very much about you! Wow! So dramatic. But, still, that's what Fanghan told me. I really don't know whether I should change my attitude towards her or just let things remain the same. Hard decision..
3:27 PM
